my Quest for SPECIAL...

I feel like I have been on a quest lately.  A personal quest for a little something called "special".

When someone is looking for something you will often hear them say "I finally found it in the last place I looked!" Of course it is the last place they looked - why would they continue to look after the lost item was already found? That phrase actually implies that they have looked in several places before they found it.

 I feel like I have been looking for a way for me to feel "special".  After not looking in the right place for a while - I feel I uncovered some special-ness today.


I celebrated mother's day - my wedding anniversary - and my birthday all within a month's time. All special occasions but I personally felt like my husband did not go out of his way to try to make me feel "special".  My disappointment grew after each event passed and I was a bit frustrated.

I am thankful for all of the birthday hugs from Annie and the sweet cards that my nieces and nephews gave me and there were a lot of birthday greetings on my facebook wall and some sweet gifts from my sister and parents but there was no billboard sign or the neon lights that I was hoping for.

Then while paging thru a book I am reading, Jesus reminded me how special He thinks I am.  I was going to try to sum up my thoughts about it in this blog and I attempted several times - writing some things -re-writing some things - deleting some things - changing some things.... But when it comes to trying to describe God's love for me and how special He thinks I am... I was having a hard time expressing my thoughts into words that could accurately explain it.

I have been surrounded by love my whole life - but it is still hard for me to understand the depth of how much God loves me.

I am so thankful that He thinks I am special and that's all that matters!