ok - here is #2

I wonder if I will get better at this as I go along? Just so you know I was recently looking at my Jr High and High School report cards. English was not the subject that I thrived in. So I apologize now for all the words spelled wrong, fragmented sentences and improperly used pronouns and whatever else there is in the big world of propositions or prepositions and punctuation. Rachel got the English genes and I got math and science (and lunch and recess).

What is on my mind tonight? A few things I think because of something I saw yesterday.
It was a movie clip from a movie called "Facing the Giants". The scene that I saw was when the coach pulled the team captain aside and told him to crawl across the football field with another player on his back - a task extremely difficult but something the coach knew he could achieve. As he got in his face and yelled and encouraged - I felt the tears welling up in my eyes. He was yelling over and over for him not to give up and to give his all - his best - everything he had!

So why did that make me emotional you ask?

My first thought was because of my job. For a 1/3 of my life (plus a little more) I have been an office manager at an optometrists office. I could give you the regular fluff about how great it is and how much I love it and how awesome my boss is - but instead I will stick to how this movie clip applies to my job. If I was in this movie, I would be the football captain (but look more like superwoman). I tend to take it all on my shoulders - carry the weight of the office on my back. I don't need to delegate if I can do it all myself, right? I also see some of the coach in me. I push myself and have high expectations. My boss doesn't push me that much- it is not his character. But I need to be pushed. I love a goal - a clear, obtainable, yet challenging goal. Give me that and I will thrive and keep moving towards the end zone. I need to be a good example for the people I work with so I try to set the standard high. I don't want to lower my standards and expectations and I don't want to give less than 110%. But, some times I do get a little side tracked - going back to the football theme- sometimes I might stop and chat with the cheerleaders or need to tie my shoe so please don't think that I am patting my own back and that I think I do everything right. I think that along with the weight of everything comes some extra stress. So I need to eliminate that somehow. But, I'll save that for another blog entry.

My first thought for this clip was that it reminded me about my job. My second thought is that the coach was a great vivid example of God. I know, I know, that should have been my 1st thought especially since I was watching the movie clip at church. I am just being honest. It is a perfect picture of God next to me - in my face - yelling at me to give it my all and to keep pushing and not give up. Not pertaining to work but life in general. I seem to think that I have had a few things in my life that have felt like I've been "tackled". I have been hit hard by a bunch of stinky linemen who all pile on top of me while I am down. Honestly, my life is good and I am blessed. I have so many people in the stands rooting me on and cheering for me. I need to focus on that and and remember that God is always there - wanting to push me - wanting me to give it my all - wanting me to do my best and above all wanting me to not give up - no matter how discouraged I may be. My goal should be to focus on the end zone and do my best for Him - everyday no matter what. I am working on that.