What a difference a year makes. Annie turns 1 in a few days and as I sit here and reflect I am reminded of so many great moments and times of laughter. She is sweet and funny and truly a joy to my heart.
Exactly a year ago today, I can remember feeling anxious and stressed. I knew in a few short days - I was going to be a mother. I was going to be holding this tiny bundle and all I could think was "what if I drop her?" We had spent years waiting and longing for a child and then we spent months preparing our home and going through hours of education to gain our foster parents license. But, if you would have asked me if I was ready to be a mother I would have been the first to respond -"no way!" I didn't know what I was doing. I had been around babies before but not 24-7. I was just the babysitter or the aunt and I could always go home at the end of the night and put my feet up and enjoy a good nights rest. I was also getting ready to leave my job for 6 weeks. That was my life up until this point. I wasn't sure how the office would survive without me.... (they did great, by the way).
But, now it is a year later, and some of the things I find myself saying on a regular basis are.... peek-a-boo - what does a monkey say? - uh oh! - not in your mouth - how big is Annie? - be gentle with keekah (our 15 yr old kitty cat) - Let's go to grammo's! - more? - don't throw that on the floor - are you ready for ta-dah? - no screaming - where is Rosheena? - where is the ducky? - where is my nose?- i love you - i love you - i love you!
I love you, Annie Joy Blessing! Thank you for being my little girl.
Happy Birthday.
